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Hey! This is Pence and I'm hoping that you know how this works! If I'm not answering I'm either at work, in class, or with Namine so leave me a message and I'll call you back when I get a chance!

An entry!

I can't believe that school starts on Monday.

I've spent the summer dealing with a severely depressed father. It was to the point that his doctors had him on suicide watch while I was away visiting Namine on her vacation and when I got back and he wasn't home... I lost one parent like that, I'm not going to lose another!. Part of me just wants to stop with school right now. My dad hasn't been the same since he lost the restaurant... it got him through mom dying and being a single father and, honestly, I think he loves that place more than he loves me. The only time I ever got to see him was when he was at work... I don't want to be like that.

I mean, I do want to own my own business, but I don't want to run a restaurant. I want to be a pastry chef and make kick ass cakes and cupcakes and everything else I can get my hands on. I like cooking, but baking and decorating are my passion. It's why I'm the weird one that's majoring in culinary arts and minoring in design! I know it's a dream that's still so far away, but I'm going to get there! Even if it takes fifty years!

Namine, how are you doing...? ♥ I know I've said all that can be said, but I miss you ♥

Anyone want to do something this weekend?

Birthday Wishes~ :D

I'm breaking my journal system silence for a very, very important message!


I hope you're having a wonderful one over there in Midgar ♥ You need to let me know exactly where you're staying because I have presents for you!

I miss you and I know you're on vacation, but I hope you come back soon! You left before I got to say goodbye! ♥♥♥

No Words For This

It's gone.

Serendipity is completely gone. I don't even know how to react or what to do. Namine and I were there after hours on Thursday and even though we were staring right at him, this guy smashed the window and threw in some kind of homemade bomb that had the place ablaze in seconds. Thankfully we were able to get out, but god, who would do something like this? And why?!

Dad's barely spoken since he heard the news. It's like he's lost a family member. He opened the restaurant when he was 19, three years before I was born. It's the only thing that kept him going after mom died and now that it's gone...

I'm worried about him... the insurance people have been in contact, but the amount of money they want to give us won't cover the cost of rebuilding and reopening...

I don't think I've ever felt so lost...

Audition Fail

Huh, it would seem that I managed to miss the auditions for Hook... and here I was hoping they'd need some sort of comic relief/bumbling sidekick that always manages to say the wrong thing at the wrong time. Ah well, just proof that I don't have time in my schedule to cram another activity into. Many congratulations to those who managed to get parts, and big congratulations to you

I do volunteer my services though! I can keep everyone fed during those long rehearsals! I am good at that and it gives me a chance to practice for the competition dad convinced me to sign up for. It's one of those huge cake decorating competitions for ametures and, given enough time and pracice, that big check for $10,000 will belong to Pence~

Oh, before I forget! Nami~? Did you get those flowers I asked someone to deliver to you? I told him that he should leave them on your pillow and if they weren't there, grab your sisters boyfriends tail and yank. I had a feeling I'd regret asking him to deliver cause they probably ended up with Kairi. Just steal them back!

Feb. 19th, 2010

I think that everytime I update this, I'm apologizing for not updating more. I blame it on the fact that I have no life!

Things haven't changed very much from my last entry. I was able to register for classes thanks to a nice long talk with Dean Mickey. I managed to squeeze into a couple online graphics classes which is nice since I can do my work while I'm taking care of dad. My culinary classes are still on campus, but I need time away from home, and that's what I use that for!

My advisor has informed me that it's time for me to pick a specialty, she said I could wait, but it would be best to start the specialized classes next semester. I know it's a ways off, but it's something to think about. Not that I really had to think about anything. I know dad wants me to take over the restaurant, but I want to own my own bakery and am now officially training to be a pastry chef! So if anyone needs cakes or any other baked goods, yell at me! Cause we all know awesomeness takes practice~!

No change on dad. He's still passing out and having seizures while on the mediciation that the doctors gave him. It's weird, he's always been so healthy and I'm so worried about him. The doctor wants to fly him to one of the other worlds, somewhere with a better hospital and equipment for more tests. I think dad's about to give in and go despite his horrible fear of flying. The weaker he gets, the more worried I am that I'm going to lose my only parent... with mom, I don't even remember her or get sad about her or miss her at all. I know it might sound weird and heartless, but I was so young and remember absolutely nothing about her. But dad, he's like my best friend...

But enough of that! In happier news~! Namine~ are you busy this weekend~? And if not, would you like to do something with a certain Pence I happen to know~? ;)

Luxord, Aeris, I know it's late, but congratulations to you two! I wish you both all the happiness in the world :)


Oh wow. How long has it been since I updated this thing? Though I doubt anyone has really noticed that I've been gone cause I'm so quiet on here anyway.

It's been a stressful month or so and I honestly don't even know what to say about everything that has been going on. Dad passed out at work a few days before Christmas and spent a couple weeks in the hospital. He's been in and out of the hospital since then and they can't figure out what's going on or why he's passing out like that.

Finacially it's been a strain since the resturant is dad's sole source of income and it's important that it stays open. I've been there nostop since he got sick. I've been taking care of everything on top of keeping the house in order and taking care of him that I haven't had time for anything else. I've barely spoken to Namine in weeks and I feel so bad about that but she has come over to keep me company a few times when Dad was sleeping. And to top it all off, I missed the deadline for classes this semester. Classes started on Monday and with everything else, I missed sign ups and I can't miss out on this semester! I have a meeting with the Dean on Monday, hopefully I can explain things to him and he'll let me sign up and just catch up o whatever work I've missed.

Luxord... I heard about what happened! Are you okay? I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to come by, but with everything that's been going on... I owe you a box full of your favorite desserts! Just name whatever you want and it's yours!

Namine, I know I had to cancel on the last date we had planned, but how about something whenever you're free this week. No canceling this time, I promise! :]

End of the Semester. Yay!

I have decided that sleep is one of the most amazing things ever when you're actually able to do it! The insomnia isn't as bad as it was the last time I posted and has fallen to only happening a couple times a week. And I've noticed that it only happens on days that I have that evil, evil biology class. I'm blaming the stress of having to go to that class and after I take my final in the morning I won't have to deal with it anymore. Yay!

No one be shocked, I actually have plans for this weekend! I'm whipping up some snacks and things for the pre-ball party that Namine is having on Saturday. I was going to take Namine out to dinner before the Ball, but since we're going to Xion's party, that just might have to wait until after so that we can properly celebrate the end of the semester.

My birthday passed by pretty quietly which was just fine in my book. Spent most of the day with Namine and I didn't even have to make my own birthday cake for once! I approve of quiet, low-key birthdays!

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Good luck on your finals everyone! Just hold on a little longer, it's almost over!

Who needs sleep, you're never gonna get it~

As the subject line says, sleep is for the weak! And the lucky! I've been known to have random bouts of insomnia and have barely slept eight hours in three days. It hasn't caught up with me yet, but I find myself with an over abundance of sweet things because I bake when I can't sleep!

Would anyone that's reading this like some cookies or some muffins? I seem to have several kinds of each and I'm not quite sure that I remember making part of these. But unless there's a Muffin Fairy, I guess I did make all of this stuff! And we all know that I don't need to eat it all!

I did buy some over the counter sleeping pills the other day, but I'm almost afraid to take them until the weekend. I have morning classes and it's so close to the end of the semester that I don't want to sleep through my alarm.Anyone know of a way to make me sleep long enough to be rested but not sleep through class? I'm getting tired of the late night baking.
Well hello there TTU!

I hate to disappoint you all, but the rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated as of late! I know, I know, we have this journal and we're supposed to use it for some odd reason, but the people I want to talk to, I usually just call the people I want to talk to! X3

Things are the usual. Work, class, Namine, lather, rinse, repeat. Though, I have managed to... I dunno what to call it ... maybe disappoint would be the right word... my father. He wanted me to work the other night just so that they could have extra coverage. For the first time in my life, I told him no because I had plans with Namine. He looked... shocked and disappointed that I would actually tell him no. I know that the restaurant is his life, but as much as I love it, I do want a life outside of it. He's barely spoken to me the past few days... kinda wonder what he's thinking cause he hasn't been himself lately. Hope he isn't getting sick or something...

♥ <-- you know you who are! :3